Hey Lindsay, I am. sexually awkward. I get scared when thinking about the pain I am going to feel for the first time. I don't masturbate, I don't use tampons. I have no idea what to expect other that it will hurt. I have an online boyfriend so I know its in the future, but I had a boyfriend before who expected sexual acts out of me, even when I told him no. Is there a way to minimize the pain in any way, or something else I could do? I'm not comfortable with giving oral sex.